i am far too blessed

This is my new favorite picture ever. It is getting printed and framed and looked at all the time so so so very soon. And it's because of who's in it with me, and it's because I loved the day it was taken. It was this past Thursday, and man I am so sad that I can't fully explain how much joy I find in all of this, I guess you just have to know me. So anyway, I drove up to Rockbridge, which is the Young Life camp in VA to visit a bunch of my friends and leaders from high school who are on summer staff there, which I had been planning to do for a long time, but about a week ago I found out that Morgan was going to be there too. Icing on the cake. Man, it was such a God thing. The whole day. This whole summer, but especially Thusday. I mean...she was supposed to go to a camp out in Washington state, and so I sent her some message to find out when she was going to be there so I could send her mail, and Morgan never answers text messages so I thought it was a long shot anyway, but she did this time and I found out about Rockbridge, and do you know the feeling when you know God is just up there and there's this moment when you're just smiling at each other? Like my heart leapt and I just felt this communion of joy, like straight out of The Shack, where God was just right there in that moment with me and it was like my happiness in that moment made Him smile too. It's a pretty great feeling.

So anyway, I didn't tell her I was visiting, I just showed up and man, it was the greatest. The greatest. She's grown so much spiritually, and it was such a gift to experience that and talk to her about life and get to be a part of each others' for a couple of hours, for that matter. And maybe it's just me, or maybe it's because I've been listening to a lot of Frances Chan stuff lately, but I just feel like I can do anything, and that's because God is a part of who I am. And I've seen enough to know that He can do anything. I mean, look at what He did with Ninevah, and look what He did to me and my heart in light of what things were like at my high school and what things are like in my home life, and look what He's doing for Morgan. And all I want to do now is write Morgan letters and tell her how proud of her I am, and tell her about how I can just see God working in her and making this world, this place, more beautiful through her, and how that really shows me that God can just do anything. And it makes me want to go back to Spartanburg and tell my Young Life girls about that, and just sit around and really take the time to soak in what that really means. Because that's the biggest thing tugging on my heart, the urgency of that message, the urgency of who God is and what He's doing and what that should in turn compel us to do, I guess. It's not med school, honestly, and admitting that scares me. But I'm not really scared of anything anymore. Because maybe it's going to be going to med school and becoming a doctor and going out to the nations and making Jesus famous, and maybe it's Young Life staff, maybe something else, I don't know, but He does. I like to pretend that I know. But He turned my life upside down once with Harvard, and He's doing it again with my parents, and I wouldn't change any of that for anything, and actually, I'd like Him to do it again and I've been praying for Him to do it again because all this stuff has allowed me to see more of who God is and fall down on my face in awe of my insignificance and worship Him with humility.

Thursday made my heart so happy. Like...the rare, good kind of happy. It was probably one of my top ten favorite days; it made me think of where I am, and what I've been through...and I think about all the things the Lord has done for me, and I stop complaining and finding fault in things, and I just smile.